It is one thing to surrender your heartaches and anxieties to the Lord because of failures and sins but it is another thing to ask: Lord, what are you trying to teach me from this circumstance?
A teachable heart is a humble heart. A humble heart is a repentant heart. A repentant heart is the kind of heart that glorifies God.
“Lord, how should we get through this?”
Where is God when these things happen? Where is God when crisis seems to negate the promise of his blessing upon those who follow Him?
Four years ago today, October 7, 2013, I said Yes to Jesus and received Him not only as my Saviour but also as the Lord of my life (Romans 10:9). It was not because I was good enough nor because I deserve it, but because God is merciful. I am a sinner saved by grace through faith (Ephesians 2:8-9). Though my sins are like scarlet, He made it white as snow (Isaiah 1:18).
In 2014, when I was staring blanking at my unfortunate self-inflicted situations, I could not see hope. Three years later, God helped me figure it out. I thought He was punishing me, but He was in control of every single thing. His plans were intended to prosper me and not to harm me; to give me a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11). He allowed those situations not to punish me but for me to witness how sovereign and almighty He is.
He wanted to lead me and guide me towards His best.
But I remember the first few weeks of my relationship with God. He spoke to me a lot about forgiveness and how important it is to restore my relationship with my family. Then I would grudgingly respond to Him with “But God, that’s too hard. The damage is impossible to restore”.
Until one day, the person who shared to me the gospel said, “Go home. Start your new life in Christ with your family”.