It is one thing to surrender your heartaches and anxieties to the Lord because of failures and sins but it is another thing to ask: Lord, what are you trying to teach me from this circumstance?
A teachable heart is a humble heart. A humble heart is a repentant heart. A repentant heart is the kind of heart that glorifies God.
It was really a battle I could not win on my own. And God used such battle to teach me patience and dependence. What was the most slap-in-the-face lesson of them all? Get over yourself and your self-centeredness.
So on March 12, 2018, I settled my motives before the Lord.
But the circumstances, fears, undeserved provisions and gratitude which should have resulted to meekness and humility from my end were unfortunately kicked out of the field because pride and the right-to-self kicked in.
I would think I already know the nitty-gritty of “managing” time, but no. I eventually realized that any attempt to manage time is useless because we cannot manage something we do not own and control in the first place. But we can steward it and surrender it to God because it has been given to us – in a form that is short therefore precious.
I wanted to quit…
but God. He still led me to the realisation that I should pray about my situation and really depend on Him about the matter of my heart. Galatians 1:10 says, “Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.”